Chapter 116: Chapter 116 Losing her CADEN
One night.
A mistake made while drunk was making me lose everything now.
With clenched fists, I turned to face Ellie and her mother.
I didn’t know what to say. I couldn’t exactly blame her for this but at the same time, I didn’t know how to feel about it.
Am I supposed to accept that she’s pregnant for me?
Alora is also carrying my baby?
How am I supposed to accept that two women were pregnant for me?
Alora was the only one I loved and truly needed in my life.
I had made a mistake with Ellie and now I don’t know how to deal with the consequences.
“Caden, I am truly disappointed in you.” Esme let out.
I let her berate me. After all, I had put her daughter in a tough spot.
“It was a mistake. I know being drunk doesn’t erase or excuse what happened but it was a mistake. I will...I will never intentionally cheat on my wife.” I let out.
“So what are we supposed to do now?” Esme asked me.
It was at the tip of my tongue to ask if Ellie could get an abortion. I knew that was incredibly selfish of me but Alora was the only woman I wanted to bear my child.
“I...I can’t have a child with you, Ellie. I don’t have the heart for it.” I said, sincerely.
Esme scoffed. “So are you suggesting she gets rid of it?”
I swallowed.
“I can’t get rid of it. When I found out I was pregnant, I had also been devastated by the news. I mean, it’s not good news to be pregnant by a married man. I had went for a check up and also see if I could get an abortion. But the doctor said it was too risky for my body. I had no choice but to decide to keep the baby and that is why I thought you needed to know.” Ellie explained.
My life just kept crumbling even more.
“You have to take responsibility for what you did, Caden.” Esme said to me.
Everything felt so much to take in, I was losing my wife, my pregnant wife, I had a woman whom I want nothing to do with carrying my child.
I could literally see a bleak future awaiting me.
I held my head, feeling a terrible headache.
I was losing my mind.
“Can you...can you give me time to think...I’m losing it right now.” I said to both of them.
“I hope you can come to a decision soon.” Esme said to me, she held her daughter’s hand and left with her.
I sat on the floor, desolately.
No!
Losing Alora meant losing the light in my mind.
Why was this happening to me?
Do I not deserve happiness?
I was so happy.
We were so happy.
I was already picturing a bright and happy future for the two of us, with the number of children we’d have.
Knowing she was badly hurting right now tore at me.
I never meant to hurt her...again.
But I did.
I felt like shit.
ALORA I eventually got a hold of myself and I told Joan and my mom what had happened. My mom shook her head, disappointingly. “How could he?” “It doesn’t make any sense. I thought he loved you.” Joan let out. I sniffed. “I thought he did too.” “What if that girl is lying?” “Joan, he didn’t deny it. He didn’t deny not sleeping with her. That pretty much confirmed that she’s really carrying his baby. He lied to me about loving me. He fucking lied me and...” I burst into tears again. “I love him. I love him so much. How could he do this to me!” I cried. My mom pulled me into her arms.
ALORA I eventually got a hold of myself and I told Joan and my mom what had happened. My mom shook her head, disappointingly. “How could he?” “It doesn’t make any sense. I thought he loved you.” Joan let out. I sniffed. “I thought he did too.” “What if that girl is lying?” “Joan, he didn’t deny it. He didn’t deny not sleeping with her. That pretty much confirmed that she’s really carrying his baby. He lied to me about loving me. He fucking lied me and...” I burst into tears again. “I love him. I love him so much. How could he do this to me!” I cried. My mom pulled me into her arms.
Joan sat beside me as the both of them tried to console me.
I cried my eyes out and when exhaustion came over me, I just laid sideways on the couch.
My mom placed some dishes on the table.
“Come on, my dear. Have some.”
“I’m not hungry.” I murmured.
“You have to eat. Remember, you’re pregnant.”
That made me tear up again. “What am I going to do, mom? This isn’t the kind of life I pictured for myself, my child would have to share a dad with another woman’s child? My child would have a broken family? There is no way I can be with him anymore! I never wanted this kind of life for myself. How could he do this to me?!”
Joan rubbed my arm. “Stop crying, Alora. I’m so sorry you’re going through this but everything will be fine.”
“You two keep saying that. But everything won’t be fine! I feel absolutely crushed and I don’t think I can survive from this.” I slowly sat up, shaking my head.
“I don’t think I can share a child with someone that hurt me like this. I’ll literally be trying to heal from him from now on. How can I heal from someone I have a child with? It’d be impossible. If I see him, I’d be reminded of how he betrayed me and all the pain he caused me! I can’t have this baby.”
“Alora, calm down...”
“I should get an abortion.”